This is what really drove me to my stuttering therapy….the pain of stuttering.
For me, the thing that really held me back, while I was still stuttering, was not the stuttering itself. I felt that I could hide the stuttering – sometimes at least.
Here are the ways that I hid my stuttering:
- Kept my mouth shut – that ALWAYS worked – but I had to accept the fact that I wasn’t able to say anything!
- Changed the words around to ones that were easier to say at the time – the problem with this was that I once again was not able to say EXACTLY what I wanted to say.
It took a lot of energy to hide my stuttering to avoid the pain of stuttering. I never knew when it would pop out and embarrass me. So I spent most of my day dreading speaking situations. I was anxious most of the time. So that took a lot of energy too. The pain of my stuttering drove me to therapy which was a great blessing in my life. Sometimes life happens that way. Sometimes what hurts the most makes you stronger. This was the case for me.
After my week of intensive therapy at the University of Pittsburgh, where I enrolled in the Stutter-Free Speech Program. I found that I was able to say what I wanted to say, exactly the way I planned it for the first time in my life. It was exhilarating and freeing. Afterwards, I would start up conversations with complete strangers. I was making up for lost time!
I hope you can give yourself this gift too. It changed my life and it can change yours. I would never have imagined that I would be on a TV show talking about my stuttering or overseas training therapists in Hong Kong.
– Mark Power
Power Stuttering Center